yes....I am truly blessed....I have ppl that love me ...and I have a god that works miracles and opens doors......and by trusting him completely that this is the path im suppose to take. and a lot of hard work...ill graduate with my masters in one year.....im sso exited

hello...haven't been on here to blog much....sorry haven't felt real poetic lately...no...not sick....in fact never felt so blessed ....thank you for listening

.pray for u ....that our love finds healing...that I come to realize how much more value a life has than a passing by emotion of anger.....to lose u..I...would die....inside.
u  have made my life .....real....the pain hurts less .......and I forget when im here with u.....knowing I have u.. ..mine.....u break my fall...I feel ....love... set free...alive...thankful
in moments of shame and discussed.....for who I was....all I have seen.....I fall to u....curled in a ball of  vaulnerability....my shadows exposed......u never flinch....no...not once.....and u love me still

Excuse me while I have a poetic outburst here ........
death....loss.....pain inside your heart.......gone  ....it chipps away at your soul....like pieces of you are being pulled apart....like ur heart is gunnu explode...you want to kick, scream, yell....cuss everyone for every little thing that you are feeling....going through....like everybody should pay for the shit you have been through...but we cant now can we....that wouldn't be fair....
HOW.....why....what can I do....to fix this feeling inside.....without all the...HELLO MY NAME IS DR.....BLAH, BLAH, blahhhh
I am not a quitter...I will not give up.....all these memories and emotions are mine......if the people that we love get to be mute....unable to speak.....for themselves....we speak up for them.
people have a bad habbit these days of ignoring things....putting them off ....acting as if they aren't happening.......  that they might just go away.
But I........no I....
I need you...I love you.....just the way you are....anything less is not good enough...there is no 1/2 love
making me 1/2 a person.....so ...I guess that just gives you rights to 1/2 of me.......which side do you want then.......hmmm?

we cant always change the ppl we love into ppl we like to be around.....they are how and who they are....if they did everything we liked and waned them to do , would we end up even liking them of would they get boring......im weird.....I talk a lot ...crazy non-sense half the tem.....emotional  the rest.....but the ppl who love me the most are those that know my heart, who I really am ...knowing my past and understanding completely why I am the way I am.....they help me get over my fears...help me accomplish my goals.....my loved ones are my reason to want to be a better pearson......so they can be better ppl......

I have awesome people in my life......