Excuse me while I have a poetic outburst here ........
death....loss.....pain inside your heart.......gone  ....it chipps away at your soul....like pieces of you are being pulled apart....like ur heart is gunnu explode...you want to kick, scream, yell....cuss everyone for every little thing that you are feeling....going through....like everybody should pay for the shit you have been through...but we cant now can we....that wouldn't be fair....
HOW.....why....what can I do....to fix this feeling inside.....without all the...HELLO MY NAME IS DR.....BLAH, BLAH, blahhhh
I am not a quitter...I will not give up.....all these memories and emotions are mine......if the people that we love get to be mute....unable to speak.....for themselves....we speak up for them.
people have a bad habbit these days of ignoring things....putting them off ....acting as if they aren't happening.......  that they might just go away.
But I........no I....
I need you...I love you.....just the way you are....anything less is not good enough...there is no 1/2 love
making me 1/2 a person.....so ...I guess that just gives you rights to 1/2 of me.......which side do you want then.......hmmm?

we cant always change the ppl we love into ppl we like to be around.....they are how and who they are....if they did everything we liked and waned them to do , would we end up even liking them of would they get boring......im weird.....I talk a lot ...crazy non-sense half the tem.....emotional  the rest.....but the ppl who love me the most are those that know my heart, who I really am ...knowing my past and understanding completely why I am the way I am.....they help me get over my fears...help me accomplish my goals.....my loved ones are my reason to want to be a better pearson......so they can be better ppl......

I have awesome people in my life......